The memory remains

DangerousBoy — Fri, 16 Dec 2005 14:36:34 -0500

Fortune fame,
Mirror vain
Gone insane
But the memory remains
Heavy rings on fingers wave
Another star denies the grave
See the nowhere crowd
Cry the nowhere cheers of honor
Like twisted vines that grow
Hide and swallow mansions whole
And dim the light of an already
Faded prima donna
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
But the memory remains
Heavy rings hold cigarettes
Up to lips that time forgets
While the Hollywood sun sets
Behind your back
And can't the band play on
Just listen, they play my song
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Dance little tin goddess
Drift away
Fade away
Little tin goddess
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
But the memory remains
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black...
But the memory remains
Faded prima donna
Dance little tin goddess dance

最喜欢这一句，ash to ash，dust to dust（尘归尘，土归土），从何而来，归于何处，富贵荣华，难得一世，即便得了，也终究要归于尘土。这样的说法，似乎近于佛家的“如梦幻泡影、如露亦如电”。这本当是一个略带消极的主题，然而在Metallica的嘶吼中，一切释然，尘归尘，土归土，人虽归去，回忆仍在，这个世间上有我留下的足迹，还有我用生命书写下的宣言。在我活着的时候，我所能做的，就是我将要做的。
摇滚的精神，在于铁与血的灵魂，在于激情的迸发和燃烧，然而像这样窥破生死而歌的，终究是少数。就如五六年前沉迷的尼采的哲学，人生固然是悲剧，也正因此而美丽。跃动着的生命的力量，在一片昏黄的背景之中，尤能显出激昂。即便世界为黑暗所笼罩，又怎能将我灵魂的火焰熄灭！诸天星辰的重压固然可以将我击垮，却仍旧无法令我屈服！

Mama said

DangerousBoy — Fri, 16 Dec 2005 14:15:48 -0500

Mama she has taught me well
Told me when I was young
Son your life's an open book
Don't close it before it's done
The brightest flame burns quickest
Is what I heard they say
A son's heart's owned to mother
But I must find my way

Let my heart go
Let your son grow
Mama let my heart go
Or let this heart be still

Rebel my new last name   //Rebel，反叛
Wild blood in my veins   //vein，血管
Apron strings around my neck  //Apron，围裙
The mark that still remains
Left home at an early age
Of what I heard was wrong
I never ask forgiveness
For what I said is done

Let my heart go
Let your son grow
Mama let my heart go
Or let this heart be still

Never I ask you
But never I gave
which you gave me your emptiness
And now take to my grave //grave，坟墓
Never I ask you
But never I gave
which you gave me your emptiness
And now take to my grave
So let this heart be still

Mama now I'm coming home
I'm not all you wished of me
But a mother's love for her son
Unspoken, hear me be
Yeah I took your love for granted //grant，同意
Now the things just to be
I need your arms to welcome me
But a cold stone's all I see

Let my heart go
Let your son grow
Mama let my heart go
Or let this heart be still

Let my heart go
Mama let my heart go
You never let my heart go
So let this heart be still

Never I ask you
But never I gave
But you gave me your emptiness
And now take to my grave
Never I ask you
But never I gave
But you gave me your emptiness
And now take to my grave
So let this heart be still

     虽然唱的是关于妈妈和不听话的孩子，却让我联想起别的事情来，比如说：男人的感情。感情实在是一个很脆弱的东西，虽则重要，也还有比之更重要的东西，不过所谓的“自由”之类，这里且不去说它，大都只是借口罢了。
     譬如树上的果实，总还有大树作为根基的。单纯以情感来谈情感，可以说是毫无意义的，而婚姻，更是建立在财产的基础上。但就情感而言，如无根浮萍，太容易变动而不可靠，要使之维持，总要借助其他，如爱好、思想。
     有这样的男人，只属于这个世界，而不属于任何一个女人，除非他能将她视若自己。一对男女因为感情在一起，而当有更重要的事情，男人则会说：“我属于这个世界，不属于你一个人。”尔后就会离开，貌似这是唯一的选择了。会有这样的女人么，可以让男人这样说：“我属于这个世界，也属于你一个人。”这时候的情感，我不知道能不能用爱情来形容，只是在我的世界中，这已经超出了爱的范畴。
     在我的生命之中，这样的女人是唯一的，然而现实总是让自己失望，即便如此，我还是愿意用一生的时间来找寻这样的女人，哪怕明知道会没有结果，也还是要尽力寻找，一如我的信仰。

以大地之名

The memory remains

Mama said